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| Hey everyone.... How are you guys..... I'm just peachy NNNOOOOTTTTT. I don't know what to do about my feelings right now. .... here's the inside scoop.
You see there is this guy named Adrian, who I care about more then anything. I have known him since about 8th grade, talking on the phone. I always thought about being with him and everything. After that we started talking on basically a daily basis on the phone or even just emailing each other. Then I stopped hearing from him and to be honest I felt like my heart completely shattered in to millions of pieces. Then my Junior or Senior year of High school as friend of mine told me he joined the Army and to be honest I cried so bad, just the thought of something happening to him. after about 5 months I got an email from him and we started talking again.
A couple months into us talking I really started to get really depressed over something's at home and the only thing that seemed to help was hearing his voice or getting a text message with his name on it.. Then one night he called me around 1 in the morning and I was still up. I started crying cause I was missing him so much, and that was when I told him everything. I told him that I wanted to be with him and that I hated the thought of being a way from him and that was the first time that I actually told him that I loved him over the phone.
Lately all I have been able to think about is being with him and how much I want to be in his life. I asked him the other day if he knew that I meant everything that I have told him and he was like " yea why, is everything ok?" I was like " yea I was just making sure" To be honest I don't think he knows how much he cares about me and it hurts so bad at times.
I Love you Adrian Aguila.
Yea well that's about it and that's about all that has been going on.
Love you guys,
~Cheryl~ | | |
| wow almost took a month to update.. God work has beneun beleivably . I really havnt done that much.. Work is trying to take out paid vacation away from us it is pissing me off so much because I already made plans and now they are going to totally be crushed  . Well what can I Say im single yet once again.... I am so sick of guys... Matt.... I have no idea what happend with that he just totally stopped talking to me  I have no idea what happened there... who knows ...... | | |
| Hey peeps what's up? sorry for taking so long to update, Work has been driving me absolutely crazy. I am supposed to go and take Stephanie out shopping sometime this week. I am hoping that she gets so worn out from track and soccer that we can put it off till nest week, but I doubt that, her and shopping is like a match. O.K. for those of you that dont know STEPHANIE is my lil sis. Champions on Ice is Sunday and I am excited about going to that, Grandparents 19th birthday present for me, I love being the oldest Grand-daughter (or even child) Then lets see I have to go to Westland at some point to drop something off. Then the 13th I have a wedding to go to which I really don't want to go to.... mm.. I don't think there is much more then that.... I mean not till August that is, and that's the best one over.... shhhh.
Love ya guys,
Cheryl | | |
| Here is the lyrics that fit me perfectly.
"Bless The Broken Road"
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.
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| This is the song that describes me feelings right now:
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house.
That don't bother me.
I can take a few tears now and then,
An' just let 'em out.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while,
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me.
There are days every now and again,I pretend I'm ok,
But that's not what gets me.
What hurts the most was being so close,
An' having so much to say,
An' watching you walk away.
An' never knowin' what could have been.
An' not seein' that love in you,
Is what I was tryin' to do.
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go.
But I'm doin' it.
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone,
Still harder.
Gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret,
But I know if I could do it over,
I would trade, give away,
All the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken.
What hurts the most was being so close,
An' having so much to say,
An' watching you walk away.
An' never knowin' what could have been.
An' not seein' that love in you,
Is what I was tryin' to do.
Oh whoa.
What hurts the most was being so close,
An' having so much to say,
An' watching you walk away.
An' never knowin' what could have been.
An' not seein' that love in you,
Is what I was tryin' to do.
Oh whoa.
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